March 12th, 2020
Professors had been giving lectures on alternative ways of learning because of this virus that was going around. Thursday, March 12th, 2020, was no different. It was my last class before the weekend, and it just so happened it was St. Patrick’s Day weekend. Which meant drinking before the sun came up and then after the sun came down. At the beginning of the lecture, my professor had given us a what-if scenario if there was a chance we were to go online for a couple of weeks. A student asked if the professor thought we would end up doing online learning. They responded that it was a low possibility it would happen.
Forty minutes later, we received an email saying we would start spring break a week early. Then continue to learn online until April 17th. The room abrupted into chaos, this excitement of two weeks of nothing. We were so painfully unaware of what the next year would bring to us.
Two days later, we were celebrating St. Patrick’s Day; maskless, 6 inches apart, and trying weird green drinks the bar concocts. The next day we packed some clothes, said some goodbyes, wholeheartedly believing is that all it would take is two weeks.
As I sit here and reflect, I become so overwhelmed with all that has happened that it is hard for me to put it into words.
2020 was a roller coaster. College was over on March 12th and, I did not even realize it. There were so many missed opportunities. I was making so many new friends my senior year, enjoying the classes I was taking. Through zoom, it just was not the same. I was never able to have a proper graduation ceremony. Sometimes I even forget that I graduated. I lost two loved ones in 2020, fortunately not from COVID, yet the virus prohibited me from getting the closure that I feel like I deserved. Sometimes I think they are still here, and it is painful to remember they are not. I miss them. My heart aches for those who have also gone through the same situation.
I think that more positive moments are hard to come by, but they are there. This pandemic has helped open my eyes to having a new perspective on life. There were so many things that I took for granted. I learned how to take better care of myself both mentally and physically. I figured out what was important in life and what was not. I have had a lot more family time. I have lived at home since March, and while there are days where it is hard. There are also days where I realize how grateful I am. One day I will look back at the memories I created with my family during this time with a fond attitude. I also must mention that I am proud of myself for graduating college. There were many times during my college career where I thought I would not make it. Yet, I did it.
So much has changed. There is a very dim light at the end of the tunnel and, we can start to see it. We are exhausted, burnt out, but we are still here.
Thank you so much for reading. I know this was a long post but, I appreciate it. I want to hear the lows and the highs of your 2020, no matter how big or small.