To be honest, I have no idea what I am doing. I feel like I did when I first started my blog. Maybe you noticed, or perhaps you didn’t, but I kind of went off the grid. My last post was three weeks ago.
After that, I just felt blah. I don’t know how else to put it. I wasn’t sick. I wasn’t super busy. But I could not find it in me to blog. So, I decided I would stop for a week, and then a week turned into two, and then before I realized it was November. (Which is crazy.) I also decided that I wouldn’t even open the WordPress app.
Now I’m sitting here on Halloween, a little hungover, drinking an Iced Chai Latte and suddenly feeling inspired to write, wanting to share with you all what I have learned over these past few weeks.
I have learned that I can’t force myself to do things that I don’t want to do. There are times that I have written a blog post to make sure I stay consistent, even though I’m not satisfied with the content. Now, I realize that forcing myself to write is only going to make me hate blogging. Instead, I must figure out a schedule that works best for me.
I have learned that I need to do more than look at my phone all the time. Specific, but I need to cut back on social media. I have lost a lot of hobbies, including blogging, from the amount of time I spend on my phone. And with these cold months coming ahead, I would like to find other ways to keep me entertained besides pointless scrolling.
I have learned that I am not 100% happy with my life, but the only one that can change that is me. I like to play the pity card a lot. Even though my life isn’t that pitiful. Sometimes, I think it’s okay to get down in the dumps. But when you’re so far down that you can’t find a way out is when it becomes a problem, and I am working on putting effort into the changes I wish to see.
I gained some followers while I was away, and I am really close to 200. Which I honestly cannot believe. But I hope this post doesn’t depress or deter you away from staying. I am not gloomy all the time.
I’m hoping this blog post makes sense, lol. I can’t make any promises for how consistent I’ll be for the rest of the year. Because every time I say I am going to do something, I do the opposite.
I want everyone to know that I am trying my best, and I am excited to catch up and read everyone’s content from the past couple of weeks. So, if it looks like I am spamming you, I’m sorry. (But not really)
This post is a mess.
Thanks for reading!